Sometimes I absentmindedly click on my blog to see if it's been updated.
I think about what I want to say a lot during the day. Most of what I think about is completed in my head and never makes it to you. I wish I could hold on to it and get it put out there as I think some of it is pretty profound/interesting. It seems like most of what gets into my blog is less than profound/prosaic. I try to keep away from the "I got up this morning and ate cereal. It got dressed and got on the bus..." sort of blogs that I see around.
I do write this blog mostly to keep in touch with my family/friends - "without having to actually keep in touch with my family" as my sister said. Ouch. Busted. It's not that I don't like keeping in touch, because I do. I have a cool family that I love very much. It's more the actually process of keeping in touch that eludes me.
I am not much for the phone. I used to be a chatter, but that has faded away. I pretty much want to transact what ever business and then be off the phone. Not really good for "keeping in touchness". Does anyone write letters anymore? I do fire off a bit or so via email to folks, but it is mostly again pretty business-like.
I blog to share my thoughts with folks and often with myself. I can really surprise myself with what I actually type here. With where my fingers are led by my brain. I often blog late at night after an exhausting day as a way to decompress. Such as tonight. I can often be somewhat estranged from how I am feeling - my interior landscape. I pretty much keep my head down and keep slogging on. It's hard for me to stay in touch with myself when fairly overwhelmed with the details of running a life as complicated as ours.
I think that has been one of the big benefits of writing here. It's like writing a letter to myself/my family/my friends/random clickers and having the bonus of not having to mail it. It does seem like there is supposed to be a separation/tacit agreement that what issues are raised in the blog are not to be talked/discussed in face-to-face meetings. It's just a feeling I get when I mention somebody elses blog and the author seems to feel embarrassed. I've never actually asked someone if they are upset with my verbal reminder of their written exploration.
I sometimes wonder if my posts are too scattered. I read other blog where the author is very disciplined about writing on a subject in most of the posts. I try to make sure to update on a universe of subjects but pretty much anything goes.
I found myself thinking of an Airedale puppy today. Wonder if it's getting time. I also found myself quite busy with the life I have as it is. But it was good to think about and not have it hurt so badly.